I See Myself

I looked in the mirror and saw myself as you see me

Really saw myself

Beauty

The beauty he saw in my battered body overwhelmed me. How could anyone want to stare at me forever? The adoring look in his eyes couldn’t be real. He said it was. “You are gorgeous!” he said. Now repeat it until you believe it! I nod.

The gods of Chemical Balance

“You look beautiful in the sun!” She exclaimed smiling as she walked up the aisle towards me. I smiled back betraying my true feelings at that moment. Even as I said thank you I was thinking: I wish I felt beautiful; I wish I could tell my brain to stop sending me mean messages; I…