#52essays: The Scabs

My sister got married today. She asked me to pour the ceremonial libation which is an integral part of any auspicious gathering in our culture, at the reception dinner. I positioned myself and steadied the plant that would be the recipient, my voice and hands shook as I juggled the mic and calabash. As I…

Butterflies

“I want passion so strong That it makes me wanna cry I want nothing short of Butterflies Yeah butterflies I’m sorry it took me so long To figure out I’m worth it ” “Butterflies” by Rissi Palmer [I’ve spliced this song some kinda bad but it works for my purposes and I guess I figure…

Busua

For David… You lie face down chest rising in a pattern all your own on the bed we’ve shared for two nights arms in a triangle supporting your head full of curls You are a linear progression…after this triangle Body slender wrapped in the cover cloth thighs touching each other parting at the knees to…

I See Myself

I looked in the mirror and saw myself as you see me

Really saw myself

I’m In Your City

You are buried here

I can’t stop thinking about that

It’s like you are here

You are all around me

SOMETIMES

I think I didn’t do/what a proper girlfriend/would have done/I should have held/your body one more time/cradled your head in my lap/like the last night we were together/blissfully chatting

Ode to Audre

I found you while searching for books by other Black women, other immigrant women, other writing women, other queer women.  I didn’t know of you before then. Perhaps I wasn’t supposed to know because I wasn’t ready. back then, I was scared of queerness, skittish about writing, deathly afraid of Blackness, ashamed of claiming my…